If you don’t know what you want, nothing feels like a fit.
In 2001, my life looked a lot differently than it does today.
I was running on empty, exhausted working for my mother at the family dance studio. I was anxiously married, living in an enormous elegant house, and surrounded by family, friends, classy parties, and busy days.
But every day, I was restless and unhappy.
My days were filled with busyness, empty chatter, secrets, doubt, fear, and confusion.
I found myself waking up to a full schedule packed with stuff that didn’t feel important, fun, or purposeful.
I felt out of place, overwhelmed, and entirely alone, even when I was surrounded by everything and everyone.
I caught myself fantasizing about a different life but not even able to imagine what that might feel or look like.
And I had gotten so used to it all – slamming doors, keeping secrets, feeling uncomfortable, even though on paper I had it all – that I even forgot what it felt like to feel love, be loved, and feel at home in my own skin.
And, I’m deeply grateful, there came a point where I just couldn’t live like that anymore.
There came a moment where I woke up, realized how unhappy, unfulfilled, un-me everything felt, how I had showed up, behaved, and allowed so much into my life that didn’t feel like me, and how that had affected every situation I found myself in.
And I braced myself for changes.
In 2002, I made the very difficult decision to stop working for my mother. I finally let go of the ever present feeling of living my life to try to please her.
In 2008, I filed for divorce and moved out of the marital home from my lifeless, insensitive, secretive marriage of 20 years to begin a new life of my own.
And the more I stepped up, changed, grew, and healed, the more I continually found tremendous courage and strength, even when I thought I wouldn’t and couldn’t.
In 2016 I collected my spirit and allowed it to guide me to surrender everything, say goodbye to everything and everyone, shift the future of my life and business and moved to Belize to start Science + Soul Wellness and live a simpler life according to my Dharma not drama.
I made it home, and finally feel at home, as Steven proposed and we eloped to be married by my yoga teacher and mentor, Yogarupa Rod Stryker, August 28, 2017.
Over the last 16 year journey, I’ve come home. I’ve rediscovered my desires, what makes me feel like me, my purpose, my Dharma. I’ve been supported and safe, and I’ve learned that it’s okay to reclaim your voice and reinvent yourself.
It took so much courage, and the end result was so much bigger, more beautiful, more fulfilling, than I could have initially imagined.
And that courage grows the more you’re willing to heal and step into becoming more and more yourself.
It’s been a long journey for me, and I could not have done it alone. Neither could I have seen my way to all of the beauty that now surrounds me if I hadn’t started the process a single step at a time.
But we are not alone.
We are always supported.
And that is why I teach, why I coach, why I’m here.
To support you as you heal, rediscover, and grow.
Into more love, more simplicity, more pureness, more adventure, more play, more fun, more depth, more character, more integrity, more authenticity, more purpose, and more passion.
Passion for life, for love, and for yourself.
When you’re ready to step into your passion, your purpose, your desires, when you’re ready to receive that support, I’m here for you.